Yeah, here I am again…been awhile, huh…again. Instead of just apologizing, I decided to explore what makes us, as artists, go from being so excited to do what we do, to being “stuck” and depressed or or discouraged about it. I guess for the last several months, that describes me. However, I’m sure most of you…you artists, you…have or do feel the same way from time to time.
What makes we artists want to create anyway? There are a lot of answers to that. Do bad past experiences drive us? Was it the only way we could convey an idea? Do we want simple self-expression, or do we want others to appreciate who we are? Of course, there are a million answers to that, as many answers as there are artists. And that is because we each have our own path to follow, our own life to live, our own way to deal with what we have lived. If you haven’t asked yourself that question, especially at low times in your life or at times where you artistic “muse” has taken a hike, maybe you should. It might help you to get through those tough times and begin to create again. Or…maybe not. Just a suggestion that helped me get back on track.
For myself, the last several months have been a struggle. Not so much to create or to keep working, but to express myself as fully as I would like. We moved four times last year, came back to Texas from a home we loved in Florida, lived with a dear friend, and finally decided to RV full time. The transition was not bad at all and I love where Gary and I are at in our lives, so it shouldn’t have bothered me, but evidently it did. While work went on, my mental attitude suffered and I quit writing and became over sensitive. My poor husband. My “muse” not only went on a hike, she got a plane ticket and went to the other side of the world. And she took my confidence with her! If I could have found her, I would have slapped her silly!
Instead, I took time off to breathe, tackled a few minor health issues (Oh, have I mentioned I hate getting old?), and am trying to take my work in a new direction; not a right or left turn but more like a nice slow curve. Those of you that have branched out in your art, know what I mean. Learning new methodology can be a slow and painful process when you are stuck in your ways. But…I’m learning…always learning, as it should be. And I still make old designs, but what I have decided to do is release those designs to you, my friends, for your pleasure and so I can keep moving forward.
I recently created a tutorial for my piece, the Wire Helix Series Beaded Bracelet, but didn’t want anyone to make them to sell. It was hard for me to let go. I was so proud of her. She was my first…my first real design that was my own. I got some positive and negative comments on that one, which is to be expected. Anytime you put yourself out there, there is going to be both negative and positive come out of it. It’s part of being an artist, an expressionist, being able to put your inner self in front of others and taking what comes along with that. At first, I didn’t do so well…
But now, my dear friends, as I said, I’m moving on. I’m going to release the tutorial I’ve done to those that have purchased or will purchase it in a revised form so that you (they) can make them for yourselves as you like (I will be notifying you and posting the new tute on my site here). I hope it’s a limited amount and that I get credit for the design. That’s all I can ask. I just ask for the respect. And I will be doing more tutorials. Why? Because I’m a natural born trainer and teacher, and while I won’t be teaching students directly, I will still be teaching, and I miss it. Also, by releasing these designs for others to make, it will keep me in “design” mode, where I will want and strive to come up with new and unique items. After all, isn’t that what being an artist is all about?
I think my “muse” has bought her return plane ticket. What do you think?
Stay Wired Up!!! and thanks for your support!